Insanity

Surrounded by insanity
That doesn’t know my brain
Surrounded by reality
That doesn’t know my pain
Destroyed by a conscious
And never had a chance
Brought back to life by miracles
Then slowly died again
A weapon on mass destruction
Completely full of rage
Flipping through the book of life
Ripping every page
Its time to write a better story
One that leads me to a bliss
Without half thought through suicides
And doesn’t end like this
How can I be happy
With the world pulling me apart
How can I have feelings
When I never had a heart
They tell me all about me
Like they have a fucking clue
You want to see inside me
Then ill show you who I am
A complicated maniac
Who never gave a damn
Born and raised a failure
I never had a chance
Surrounded by four walls again
My future holds no plans
I suffocate to fall asleep
And wish my life were just a dream
But the nights are growing longer
And the days are flying by
My life has lost all meaning
And I still do not know why
When I look into a mirror
I have no idea who I see
Am I living in reality
Are things really what they seem
Are we really just all strangers
Frozen washed up and reborn
No we’re really just all criminals
Stealing thoughts from our own world
I can’t find myself with mirrors
I don’t define myself with shadows
I can wash away the dirt
Still cant scrub away the sorrows
I wonder down the wrong path
Broken lost and dumb
I’ve always solved my problems
But they still keep piling up
I scribble in disgust
Because I’m sick of who I am
An average minded criminal
That doesn’t know his name
My mind is like a record
But I can’t rewind and replay
I don’t know how I get through each and every fucking day
This worlds just a tragedy
We’re all to blind to see
We’ve given almost everything
Yet you call this fucking free
Innocents are ignorant
The truths are all bent lies
Contorted in their favor
So I can not survive
If the bleeding doesn’t kill me
Then I guess ill be o.k.
You can grow a bed of roses
And throw the thorns into my grave
The heart can tell a story
The mind wouldn’t dare to dream
The soul can hold a secret
But the lips can’t keep it in
Blanketed by blood
Still can’t cover up the scars
Wide-awake I’m empty
Just a shadow in the dark
I once had a life
Now I’m living here in sin
Id give it up forever just to have it back again
I will never be a poet
I am just a heart and soul
Forever in my own world
At least I can’t grow old