Forgetting

As I wake, my tears begin to shed
This moment where I'm vulnerable I constantly dread

I've held them back so none may see
But all alone that strength I have flees

I can be myself not some cast
I begin remembering my broken past

I've no use for alcohol or prescription drugs to stop my weeping
My drug of choice comes with ease, I choose sleeping

So I lie back down and begin to forget once more
My mind, my body, my soul is all too sore

I wake in the morning with clear memory of the previous night
The sun is shining so I'm told, but i still can't see the light